Monday, June 7, 2010

One month down, 8 more to go!

I hope these next 8 months just fly by! I am so ready to have a little baby in my arms again. As I read other blogs and go back to when Hailey was first born, it makes me really sad that we never got to hold her right away. We didn't get to have that first bonding experience and she didn't get to cuddle with me to get to know my smell, or my husband's smell. I think about that a lot and sometimes wish that we were at a hospital that gave us that opportunity. I've read in many other blogs about the Moms and Dads being able to hold their babies who also had the same condition as Hailey. All I got was a one second glance at her after they cut her out of my stomach. Hailey was very stable the whole time leading up to the day of her surgery. She didn't need a ventilator or c-pap, or even a nasal canula. All she had was an IV to keep that duct open. So it makes me so angry at times that I never got to hold her and be her mom those first 3 days.
This is why we are so much anticipating the birth of our second child. I crave being able to hold my child immediately after birth to get the sensation and feelings all mothers should be able to experience. Just to clarify and I am sure most of you know this, but this child will in no way ever replace or even compare to the amazing little girl that Hailey was. We can't wait to tell this new baby all about his or her big sister watching over. We just can't wait to be parents and experience everything as if it's all brand new to us. It pretty much will be since the first time around was nothing like anyone could have imagined.
On a more upbeat note, Josh and I have both been having a "feeling" that this new little baby is going to be a boy! We both had that feeling before Hailey was born (that she was a girl) so we'll find out if we are right again! We already came up with a very cute boys name if it happens to be a boy, but we'll share that at a later time. :)  Here is the weekly update for our new little peanut!

Week and day: 6 weeks and 1 day

Belly Button in or out: Still in. :)  Never came out while I was pregnant with Hailey, so I think it may stay in!

Wedding rings on or off: Still on of course!

Food cravings:  None

Food aversions: None

Nausea: Just a little bit, nothing too bad just yet. 

Energy level: Getting very sleepy throughout the day!

Weight gain: None

Mood: Excited! Nervous as well!

Maternity clothes: I'm sure I have a month or so before those are needed!

Size of baby: 0.08 to 0.16 inch (2 to 4mm) The size of a blueberry! 

Baby's changes: The neural groove closes and early brain chambers form. The eyes are also forming, and  limb buds appear. The heart tubes fuse, and heart contractions begin!  

Next appointment: June 11th at 10:30am

What I've been up to: My husband and I have found a new love for getting out to play some disk golf! It's a lot of fun and a great little workout that's safe during pregnancy. It's just a little hard to get out to do anything lately since it's been raining non stop for 3 weeks. We only got one break and had a great sunny day this past Saturday. Can't wait for the Pacific Northwest to start showing signs of summer!


  1. Those first few minutes after your baby is born are the most treasured moments you can experience. My heart breaks that you never got to experience that with your baby girl. Every hospital seems to handle this so differently.

    Saying many prayers for a healthy baby #2 and for a chance to cherish all of those "first" moments together!

  2. I know what you mean about wanting that first experience with your baby. I never got that with Veda either. Even though her condition was nothing compared to Hailey's she still spent her first 6 days of life in the NICU and the first few they wouldn't let us touch her. I was so scared of the possibility of reliving that a second time, but we didn't! I believe that you wont have to either and that you'll get to experience that beautiful bonding experience that all great parents should get!

  3. I know exactly what you're talking about. I didn't get to hold Aly either. About a week after we got home from the hospital with Aly, one of our best friends had a baby and we went up to the hospital to see them. As I was holding their baby just a few hours after he was born, I was literally choking back tears because I had wanted that moment with my own child and didn't get it. Always praying for you and Haileys new little brother or sister! Are you going to find out the sex or is it going to be a surprise??
    Heart hugs always,

  4. Hi! I just noticed you started "following" our blog. Thanks!

    I just quickly read up on your story (I'd like to read your post about Hailey's Story, but I'm afraid I just can't right now. Too soon for me.). It's nice to know another NorthWest heart mom. Which hospital were you at for your surgeries?

    I lost my mother December 7th, one month before Joy was born. Your story breaks my heart. Being a new mom myself, I just can't imagine it. Your positive attitude is an inspiration.

    Congratulations on your new little one! Can't wait to find out what you're having! Best of luck and I'll be thinking about and praying for you.


  5. Hi Miriam,

    We also had our surgeries at Doernbecher. I noticed that's where you were too. They are such an amazing group of people!

    I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. I couldn't imagine having that happen, especially right before hew new grandbaby would be born. I hope you're getting through okay.

    We can't wait to find out what we're having either, but even more importantly is to make sure she has a healthy heart!

  6. No kidding! This has been a concern of mine, too, as far as future babies go.

    Blessings on you!!

  7. I just found your blog through The Spohrs Are Multiplying and have been crying as I read through your past posts. I'm wishing you and your family nothing but happiness and health with this new pregnancy!